At age 5, Ajay Holbrook, 22, realized that he wanted to be a male although he was born a biological female. Holbrook told CNN that he’d wake up every morning and cry, wishing he was a male.
“I always saw myself as a male figure. I was always into sports instead of girly stuff. I would get my dad to buy me boys’ clothes so I could match my brother, said Holbrook.“
But Ajay Holbrook had sort of an obsession with looking like a big muscle-bound man and due to his gender transition, he’s the exact image which he had always pictured himself to be.
“My body wasn’t the way I wanted it before. With bodybuilding, I’m able to work and improve myself every day.”
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I don’t strive for perfection I strive for greatness, in everything that I do, and everything that I am. I just want to make myself proud • I’ve been a little quiet on here but it’s because I’ve been hella focused and working my ass off to create a better life for myself out here! I’ve been having internal conflict with wanting to post more but taking pictures of myself just feels so vain lol trying to get over that tho! I don’t feel the need to post every other day to stay relevant or constantly be showing my face to feel important, I just be chillin and post whenever I feel like it sorry guys 😩😂 • Life update: I am still living with my roommate in downtown LA, I finally found a steady job so I am working there & doing personal training on the side! Next step is getting my motorcycle so I can have a means of transportation (for those that don’t know I got in a bad wreck a couple of weeks ago and lost my car) so once I get my bike I can kickstart my training and travel to my clients once again 🙏🏽 My pup aika is currently staying with a friend of mine until I get my apartment and that has been harder on me than everything else, I just miss her so much 😭 All of this has been so fucking tough on me physically and mentally & I only share small parts with you guys but there is SO much more that has happened in between that has really taken a toll on me. I have to keep going. • My goals in sight. And fire in my heart I am ready to conquer everything that comes my way 👁 • #transman #transmen #bodybuilder #bodybuildingmotivation #bodybuilders #bodybuilding #mro #mrolympia #ifbb #ifbbpro #arnoldclassic #legday #absworkout #shredded #naturalbodybuilding #naturalmuscle #create #evolution
Holbrook started testosterone treatments at 17 and explained that he felt like “himself”. He explained that one day his stepdad beat him up really badly after learning of the sex change and that the incident made him want to transition to a male even more so that he could protect himself.
But the Texas native feels the need to outwork everyone just to prove himself and everyone else that he is a “real man”.
“My goals are to compete in Mr. Olympia and just make, I guess a footprint for trans people and the bodybuilding community. I look in the mirror and I’m very thankful. It’s definitely the person I was born to be without a doubt.”
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Can you focus..👁 • Current condition, feeling stronger and getting THICK lmao My PT test got pushed back until next week due to me having to wait for my California ID to come in, which is all good because had to get it updated anyways! • From the looks of things I’ll be moving out of this apartment in April my ex completely fucked me over and dipped back to Texas, I’ll spare you all the details but just be VERY careful who you let into your life. Trust others, but never too much. All in all I learned and grew from all of this and just want to get myself right and settled out here. So tired of bouncing from place to place and not feeling like I have a home 😅 • Thankful that I’ve pushed through all of these set backs, and blessed to have the people in my life that are genuine and real – will keep you guys updated. 🙏🏽❤️ • #bodybuildingmotivation #bodybuilder #bodybuilders #transman #transgender #transguy #lgbtpride #aesthetic #aestheticarmy #leanmuscle #bulking #bulkingseason #strengthtraining #arnoldclassic #mrolympia #gains #create #evolve #evolution #h.e.r #focus #bodybuilding #goldsgymsocal #ajayholbrook #naturalmuscle
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NO fancy lighting, NO perfect angles, just RAW, HEAVY ASS WEIGHTS 🤮 Life update: I’m picking myself tf up off the ground once again & getting the ball rolling right now as far as all of my careers, I’m looking into some upcoming bodybuilding shows to get me prepped and get my feet wet in this industry. I KNOW I’m coming for titles, I do not do shit just to participate! On a deeper note, I can’t help but to have a looming thought of when I do win these competitions against Cis Men I know SOMEONE is going to get hit right in their fragile masculinity and I know people can get crazy when that happens, so I am just staying aware and making sure that I am safe during this journey. I meet ALOT of people who recognize me which is such a beautiful thing, but I also meet crazy’s that don’t like me for who I am so always gotta be on my shit ☝🏽👏🏽😅 Sharee and I are still living together, she is flying back and forth from Texas to help with our rent and I am so blessed to have such amazing clients (online and in person) so things are starting to smooth out a bit just trucking on and pushing harder than I ever have, NO TIME FOR LOOKING BACK AND DOUBTS. ITS GAME TIME.🖤✨ • 🎥 @bshadyy_ #transgender #transguys #bodybuilding #bodybuildingmotivation #bodybuilders #shoulder #shoulderworkout #bodytransformation #transman #ftm #ftmfitness #mro #mrolympia #arnoldclassic #ifbb #ifbbpro #push #pushthrough #successmindset #fitfam #fitnessinspiration #fitnessinspo #ajayholbrook
Ajay Holbrook won’t be able to reach his goals without opposition and negativity along the way. However, that sure won’t stop him from pursuing his passions, just as it didn’t prevent him from deciding to make the physical changes.